The first week had its ups & downs. Sometimes I just felt like shit because I care very much about what the Master thinks and feels. I can’t be myself as a total Submissive. I feel like I’m normally submissive enough as it is, but taking it to this extra level I sometimes appreciate and sometimes don’t. I don’t think it’s ultimately cut out for me. Maybe D&S is more for couples who are really close in the first place. Perhaps it’s for people who are thicker than I am and can handle not the strong emotions that come into play. The one major perk is that it can really be an erotic game when I want it to be (which is most of the time). Other times my feminist soapbox wants to interrupt the festivities.
I was mostly obedient this week. I tried the whole time, except I got sloppy on my mini-vacation this weekend. My reward is that I am allowed to masturbate and cum three times this weekend. I don’t think I will. My pussy is sore from excess dildo-age in the recent past. You never know though, I might still cum. I still get turned on even when my pussy is sore (Of course). As a matter of fact, I’m going to double check my pussy momentarily to see if it’s still sore (and if not..).
Off to see what Week 2 has in store. xoxo