Well, the end of this month has been crazy! This is mostly because my internship has ended, I had to pack up and move home, not to mention celebrate the finale with all of the new friends I made. Sure the program drove me crazy—because there were too many women in the program with me, and not enough men. I will miss many of the fellow students in the program, however, and leaving them was pretty sad. It was a hot week. I was also dirt broke, which tended to complicate things. In addition to all of this, I had to prepare a presentation as well as write a paper. My presentation was eh, alright, and my paper is still a work-in-progress that doesn’t really have a set deadline.
Now that I am home, I am busy seeing family members and best friends I haven’t seen in 2 or more months. Also, I am rather internet-less. This puts a damper on things including: my sex drive, my blogging time, my sex toy contest-entering, my tweeting, my researching, etc. So, I am keeping somewhat distracted, and not getting very horny.
Anyways, I tried making a video of me masturbating for Master last week. My sound was off for this production, unfortunately, so I had to re-record my play session for him. My goal with this playtime is to cum on camera by only rubbing my clit. These past two weeks have included very little masturbation, and what little masturbation I have been doing, has been without a dildo!
I used to always prefer masturbating without a dildo. I could cum in my panties. I didn’t have to get all messy and wet. I only needed three fingers and my eyes closed. This was how I masturbated from the time I was around 11 years old (SO YOUNG) until I was about 21. I was fairly anti-porn. I was super-secret about my masturbation–or, tried to be. Overall, I was fairly naïve, insecure, and hush-hush about it. However. By the time I turned 21, I was still a virgin, only recently been kissed, and I was furious about this. So I decided to take matters (literally) into my own hands.
For my 21st birthday, I bought myself 2 dildos. I didn’t know what size I would like, so I go a 6 incher with a 1 inch diameter, and another dildo that was a 6 incher with a 2 inch diameter. Both used to be able to vibrate as well. These were pretty fun to use, but I remained naïve about vaginal pleasure until I had sex with my Ex (which is the title of a Ne-Yo song, FYI). I didn’t lose my virginity to him, but I might as well have.
I didn’t start porning until last October or so, I think. I like to think I am now a porn expert too, which is funny. Women are visual and can get aroused by such a wider variety of porn or sexual activities than men can. This is a lovely characteristic and let me tell you, I’ve watched a LOT of porn this past (almost) year.
I was skeptical at first because I figured porn was all about itemizing women and arousing men. However, even though sometimes I think this is still the case, it also makes a difference that the most customers of porn ARE in fact men. Thus, the market is driven based on what they want, for the most part. If porn was less taboo and enjoyed more by women, I think this would also affect the market and the styles of porn.
Anyways, regardless of my Feminist Soapbox, I enjoy watching porn, and I promote watching porn. Porn and masturbation keep people more content in a wide variety of ways (ask me to explain this if you wish!) One reason I believe this is that a person needs a sexually satisfying lifestyle. If this cannot happen with another person, then he or she should satisfy him or herself.
Also, I hope my newest video had sound for Master. I guess I will find out. I think one problem with people and masturbation is that they can get conditioned to orgasming/cumming from VERY specific things, and if these things don’t happen everytime, then they won’t cum. It’s sad when this happens, because sometimes a partner or loved one can’t help the person with this extraneous need in the bedroom. So, I think people should keep this in mind when they masturbate. Change up the positions, the locations, the toys, the porn types, etc. These little remedies of variety might be your sex savers in the long run. This is just an idea! These past two weeks I gave up dildos, and I’m sure you can do the same to make your playtime more challenging and fresh (I hope). Let me know what you think!…. xoxo
